Once agn...

I totally can't sleep last night. I spent the whole day at home because I'm having mood swings agn. I yearned to go out yesterday cos it'll be the last weekend of holiday so I hope to be enjoyable but somehow because my bro doesnt wants to join me for it and the other 1 is sick, i flared up. In the end, supposedly intended to go for buffet also didn't go just because I'm having mood swings. I felt suppressed and very sad when the night came. When I was about to sleep, don't know why I just started crying and resulted unable to sleep. When I tried hard to clear all thoughts and managed to fall asleep, within an hr later I woke up. And started crying agn which I can't control somehow... I just felt very sad because have to return to sch on the day after next. I just felt scared and don't wish to return to those days so I didn't want to spend the whole of today at home too cos I know I'll be bored and start to think silly agn. So I told mummy and today indeed we spent the whole morning n afternoon outside. Time passes extremely fast when out and 1 day is going to be over soon. Haizzz... How how how??? At least today didi made me feel happy with his usual crappy character but I wonder am I able to sleep soundly tonight anot. Really scared of sch n sch days... but I also know I can't keep on crying...