A Big Thank You to all the horny Aunties!

Today as usual like the previous CNY, all the aunties will have a gathering at aunty rose's hse. And honestly speaking, it is something which I'm looking forward to and will not resist unlike going back to grandma's hse for reunion dinner or on 2nd day whereby everyone goes back.
So today I really enjoyed myself cos all the aunties will gather round and chat everything, including horny stuff lor... hahaha... although I may not be very comfortable with it especially when they're talking abt something really 'naked', on the other hand able to experience the thinking and way of expression of adults. So do not just simply think that it's too R21 and unsuitable.
There was a point of time when I went upstairs to get a drink, zhiwei's father asked me what I'm doing now so I told him lor... So naturally when u tell someone what u're studying, they'll link it to very far, in which u'll become a professional in that area. And he said must work hard... Then this is where all the aunties (or rather typically aunty jenny & aunty sally) began to 'counsel' me. Aunty jenny said, 'don stress her la', cos she knows what had happened to me recently that's why I think she kinda of know such of encouragement will sort of have a negative impact on me whereby I'll stress myself agn. Aunty sally also said, 'education is a long process, if can't take it, it means there's a need to slow down.' Aunty jenny also mentioned that most importantly is that u must find what u're studying is interesting. It's just like mummy getting u to mop the floor, if u don like it, u'll scold all kinds of things while mopping and vice versa if u like the activity. The way she talked was really amusing which I find it difficult to express it. However I'll remember it. While listening, my tears were on the verge to drop again but I tried very hard and managed to curb it luckily. Why is this so because of 2 reasons. Firstly, I'm really touched by their encouragement and secondly it's because I'm reminded of the sad and torturing period I went through not long ago. Actually I was quite shocked to the extend in terms of the number of people who knows abt it. When I just reached there, I greeted Popo and when she gave me an angbao, she actually said get good results and DON STRESS. I'm touched too at that time. In fact I don mind people knowing it because it isn't something ungraceful or what. Anyway I've known those aunties since very young.
Tonight, I've learnt something valuable agn, which is 'education is a long process'. Perhaps I know this since very long ago but only today aunty sally actually made it appear on the surface and reminded me this. Yes, indeed it is a long way, it doesn't just stop at just getting a degree. Many people wants the faster route to get a degree fast and it seems to just stop there. It appears to just get it for the sake of getting it. This statement actually summarises my whole decision for every everything... Really...

I know I want I should change my current state. I've alrd made the first move by seeing a psychiatrist to know what is my problem and how to solve it. In fact I clearly know where is my problem and see 1 is more to seeking a solution to solve the problem. Ultimately it still have to depend on myself. I should not use the 'pitifulness' expressed by others to me as a reinforcement to carry on sinking deeper into the well of negative thoughts. Eventually, no one will pity u and it's harder to pull self out of it.

On the surface, people will think that what I'm going through is unneeded for, it's just that self being 'weak' that's why going through all these. However, now I would think differently as that regardless what have self gone thru, there'll be something valuable to learn from it which can't be bought by money. In addition, it meant more by going thru it personally than merely retrieved it thru second hand encounters. That is why different people who trying to pass the same msg across the audience have different effectiveness. This lies in how colourful their life is. The more a person goes thru in life, he more 'power' in his speech especially on life lessons. This force seems to be innate, nothing can be exchanged for it.

In conclusion, A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF THEM! I MEAN IT! ^_^