What a tiring day...

It has been a long day for me. I woke up at around 6 because lesson starts early today. Although it ended rather early today too but I'll have to go down to PS to collect things from Suhardi for tml's book making session. When I reached there, he said the book will only arrive at abt 6 or 7pm which is rather late because I have to go walk down to orchard Cineleisure for a movie appointment. So I hanged around at his working place and he treated me a ice lychee tea drink which is rather nice and had a chat with him since we have not seen each other for quite long since graduated from KR. He has not changed much except that I felt he became more mature. Although he's no longer studying (temporary) and working at a small but cosy place, I feel he's happy and it's fulfiling to him which is rather not bad too. I supposed he's the other person whom able to cast others looks aside and do something which he thinks it's good for him. Even though it is not exactly what he likes but at least he is gradually working towards to achieve what he wants. So now it is the gaining experience for a better prepared future.
Likewise, speaking to different type of people do give different views as compared to 'órdinary' peers.

Actually this morning I bumped into aunty rose at clementi mrt station so I had a short chat with her before the train comes. I think it's fate because in fact I could rush for the train which she alighted from as I would usually do when I'm already later than usual. But that day, I just took my time. Last night, I tried to chat with mummy regarding studies area and somehow I sense that actually she doesn't really like me to change... I don know if I'm too sensitive or what but that's how I felt. So I asked myself if I should give up the idea as now is the waiting time so everything seem to be calm and peaceful as not much 'waves' experienced within me. However, there is a sense of reluctance for me to do so... And once agn I seem to enter another struggle inside me. I wish I could msg HIM and see what he will say but come to think of it, I better not trouble him agn. Moreover we do not know each other long so it's rather abrupt to just msg him and trouble him with such things. I believe he will feel weird too so... ya... I'm just left with myself agn n thought thru. And just during the next morning, i met aunty rose and told her abt how sch n stuff and my intention to change... And she told me that she know someone who has high education but in the end chose to be a chef because that's her/his interest. So being highly educated does not simply means that is what the person truely likes but rather at least proved him/herself can do it but does not mean will carry on doing it. So this is how practical the world can be. before able to do sth one likes (especially if it's being stereotyped as low job), proving to others first seem to be more impt? She also did mentioned 1 pt which no 1 has talked abt before too. That is now my age is not considered to young or matured so might not know exactly what I want or like, which is true. Although there are exceptions whereby they know it since young.

And that is why I'm having a hard time and feeling so low during that period of time. Most of time just cry whenever feel that ache within my heart. So after listening to what she said, it seems to be telling me that wad i've done so far is correct, don't back out just because of current quiet period. It might be just before a wave comes if were to take it for real. So don't be decieved by it's appearance/feel.

Hence I smsed ah yee and she replied me in the afternoon. When I read it, I couldn't help but crying after reading because somehow I feel really touched at how she truely care for me. Sometimes I feel my mum didn't play much a role in my development/growing up process because the lessons i learnt thru life is from others instead from parents which shouldn't be right? So anyway... I don't know if all these are conicidence or not, somehow i think GOD has sent these people to prevent me from giving up. It may be true or false but i don't know it now... Perhaps I'll only get the ans in the future.