The person I adore alot!

Today went back to KR after 1 yr plus since the last visit. Initially I didn't want to visit ever since I withdrawed from NTU because somehow I feel I've let them down by giving up such a good chance. On the other hand, I didn't want to explain the reason for my decision because it'll be tiring for me and they might not understand anyway as they're not me. Just like what the psychiatrist said is true (because I agree too) that people tend to give comments without seeing the whole matter, just simply base on the end product which is decision. They are not going through what I'm undergoing so they cant possibly understand. Perhaps people will say everyone will undergo something similar so there's no excuse for you to give up such a gd chance blah blah blah. I agree that as people undergo different phases of life will experience something similar but not entirely the same process... For instance, young adults at the age of abt 20 will most probably be lost to what they want to do or feel afraid because the road in front is unclear. However, the thoughts, feelings involved differs across each individual as everyone is unique! That's why facing the same problem doesnt mean will have same outcome. Life problems cannot be simply solved with the use of algorithms usually.

Anyway, the main reason I went back was to see Mrs Tan because I still owed her a phone call. She passed a msg to me thru my brother to give her a call because she knew that I've withdrawed so she most probably will want to know what made me to have such a decision. I was still wondering how she knew it and she said it was her husband who told her. Wah! I didn't expect her husband to know me. I see him before and he knows my existence but didn't know that he remembered me so clearly. In fact I do hope to be taught by him because afterall he's mrs tan's hushband so anticipating how well he lectures as compared to mrs tan. Actually I did attend his lecture once before i withdrawed so... at least have not wasted my trip in there.. haha... When I know that my former teacher is still concern abt me, I really really really feel very happy and thankful of her because now she doesnt seem to be my teacher but more like a friend. In the past I'm very afraid of her and didnt expect that now I'll adore this teacher so much! I truely feel very fortunate to be in KR although i'm being 'dumped' there randomly. Those were the happiest and most fortunate days. I'll always remember and shall carry it with me whenever I go~