Immersing in the midst of a tinct of happiness (xingfu)

Able to see something I like = happiness

Possessing it ≠ happiness

****Felicia = Happy****

Afterall it does feel good especially when 'depressing' days are going to start tml so... shld feel contented with it alrd. Don't dare to ask for more. Hope to wish for more but try not to and just keep within myself, nor think abt it. Just hope all is going well smoothly for that person and remain happy as what told me previously and I feel **** happy too.

Today, I've realised what I want to achieve or rather to find back.... myself... Finding back the old felicia hoo (who) is very important to me because Over the past 3 years, I began to lose recognition of who I am. So, now I'm going to enter a new phase I know I have 2 choices. One is to carry on to be the depressing gal as I have been for the past 3 years or find back my old self, felihaha. Of course, I'm going to find back felihaha in me. Perhaps it's going to be 大変(jap) but maybe at least I am happy. Additionally, I hope I'm able to put down that fierce and strict character of myself in front of my family. I don't like abt this but it has been cultivated into a habit alrd after all the family matters happening all these while. Like I've mentioned earlier on, habits can really be frightening, it's isn't that easy to shake it away. This 2-sided of me is making me feeling tired, really tired till I'm confused about which is then the true me? I dislike complexity, so in other words u can say I'm stupid or sth... but simplicity is the true peace isn't it? Anwyay, I'm not good at words but hopefully someone out there have the same thoughts or understand what I'm trying to express.