Sad & Disappointed

Let me begin with a big big 'HAIX HAIX HAIX'... Mummy is thinking of holding a bdae party for me this year because turning to 21 is a 'big' thing in Singapore culture but in Japan, it is becoming 20 a 'big' thing instead. Anyway, I intend to only invite the real close friends of mine but who knows the few who replied me said got exams during that period so cannot make it. So this is really demoralizing but I can understand. I think arnd that period I should be having some tests also. When they replied me, suddenly I had a thinking that, 'so this is how 'good' my interpersonal relationship?' I hate doors slammed directly in my face and that's why I don't like to organise parties for myself. How good is it if someone can prepare a bdae surprise for me on that day, especially being 21 is a big thing! But this will never happen laaaa...

I think can forget abt it la. Maybe just a small celebration with my family will do and enough for me. \(*_*)/

It's alright It's alright It's alright... --> give more and expect less. Usually I give so little so it's normal to get much lesser in return right...?