It's back agn... I think...

Sch term is just abt to start in few days time but suddenly within these 2 days, 2 matters made me extremely sad, angry and worried. Why why why...?! Why just sch is abt to start, all these meddlesome problems kept coming in one by one? I don't want to be too worried but it's just a habit of mine cos I don't want to be too shocked that I'm unable to cope with any sudden attacks. That's why I always prepare for the worst of the worst although I know the possibility is low (a sign of positive thinking too isn't it). However it doesn't mean it's not possible. There's nth wrong anyway. I won't stop having such habit but at least in order not to be stressed out by it, I'm trying hard not to keep thinking it repeatedly. I'm really trying trying to change my over neg thinking cos I hate the feeling and it's definately unhealthy to well-being.

If it's for the best for the 2 rascals, I don't mind sacrificing. What can I do then? Why must I be born feeling 'old'?

Sad & Disappointed

Let me begin with a big big 'HAIX HAIX HAIX'... Mummy is thinking of holding a bdae party for me this year because turning to 21 is a 'big' thing in Singapore culture but in Japan, it is becoming 20 a 'big' thing instead. Anyway, I intend to only invite the real close friends of mine but who knows the few who replied me said got exams during that period so cannot make it. So this is really demoralizing but I can understand. I think arnd that period I should be having some tests also. When they replied me, suddenly I had a thinking that, 'so this is how 'good' my interpersonal relationship?' I hate doors slammed directly in my face and that's why I don't like to organise parties for myself. How good is it if someone can prepare a bdae surprise for me on that day, especially being 21 is a big thing! But this will never happen laaaa...

I think can forget abt it la. Maybe just a small celebration with my family will do and enough for me. \(*_*)/

It's alright It's alright It's alright... --> give more and expect less. Usually I give so little so it's normal to get much lesser in return right...?