Argh~~~ I don't want to miss tml's Jap lesson. Not only it seems there're lots of things but I love Ando's Sensei's lesson. I feel very happy whenever I go for his lesson. And this level will be the last level taught by him le because if I continue to proceed, he's not teaching pre-advance onwards. Soo... It's really a pity lor... By then I wonder if I will want to carry on anot. So far he's the only jap teacher I like the best so far and yearn to go for his lesson every week.
If not because there are no flights on 1 Oct, I won't choose to fly on tml lor. ARGH!!! I really find it a pity lor and so I'm only left with 2 more lessons and there it goes... Bye bye le Ando sensei! Haiz... How gd if he can cont' to teach us all the way to advance. Why why why? why he dont teach higher level la?!
This is the greatest regret so far...
～安藤先生は一番です！～
Monday, September 29, 2008
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Busy but Fulfiling Day
Morning:
1) received 3 smses simultaneously indicating they are unable to make it this morning. (what a coincidence!)
2) someone also just told me not coming after 1 hr later after I asked what time is she coming.
Feeling: Very pissed off. Why can't they inform me early or I must 'forced' them to say it out? They must hoping i don't bother to ask so they can get away with it but unfortunately I'm not that kind. regardless whether it's a lie, I just feel very very disappointed.
So eventually only 7 of us turned up but considered ok la. We managed to do something but it took longer than we expected because there are so many materials!!! Mrs Sim really has alot of such things and it's rather a headache for us because we have not done art for like ageesss? But it turned out to be rather nice I admit haha... Although it has yet to be completed but i believe it'll be nice.
Afternoon: After that, we headed for Mrs Fong's wake. Yes, she looked peaceful and at that moment, I hope to visit mrs yeo too after learning that news.... haiz... bad news 1 after another.
Night: I raked up some old photos during KR days and only found 2 precious photos taken with mrs fong as a class. That time we took it because we wanted to waste some time of eng period as we didnt really like eng lessons u see... it's not the teacher's fault but eng itself. although she's really good but having to do comprehension almost every day can be boring u know... I suppose she know's our motives too but just giving some leeway to us. We were really naughty back then by come to think of it now, it seem to be predestined after so many yrs. Because of our naughtiness, it did us a great deed as this photo taken has became one of the most valuable and treasured photo with mrs fong. Because of her strictness, i got higher than expected for eng O levels and im really greatful to her. Thanks mrs fong! In addition, in one of the photo, carol n mrs fong are just standing side by side! what a coincidence isn't it? Nevertheless, both of them will be missed by everyone who knows them.
This is certainly a bad yr for KR but no matter what, i'll pray for KR as a whole to get thru this difficult time... Let's hang on together~Teachers & KentRidgeans & Principals!
1) received 3 smses simultaneously indicating they are unable to make it this morning. (what a coincidence!)
2) someone also just told me not coming after 1 hr later after I asked what time is she coming.
Feeling: Very pissed off. Why can't they inform me early or I must 'forced' them to say it out? They must hoping i don't bother to ask so they can get away with it but unfortunately I'm not that kind. regardless whether it's a lie, I just feel very very disappointed.
So eventually only 7 of us turned up but considered ok la. We managed to do something but it took longer than we expected because there are so many materials!!! Mrs Sim really has alot of such things and it's rather a headache for us because we have not done art for like ageesss? But it turned out to be rather nice I admit haha... Although it has yet to be completed but i believe it'll be nice.
Afternoon: After that, we headed for Mrs Fong's wake. Yes, she looked peaceful and at that moment, I hope to visit mrs yeo too after learning that news.... haiz... bad news 1 after another.
Night: I raked up some old photos during KR days and only found 2 precious photos taken with mrs fong as a class. That time we took it because we wanted to waste some time of eng period as we didnt really like eng lessons u see... it's not the teacher's fault but eng itself. although she's really good but having to do comprehension almost every day can be boring u know... I suppose she know's our motives too but just giving some leeway to us. We were really naughty back then by come to think of it now, it seem to be predestined after so many yrs. Because of our naughtiness, it did us a great deed as this photo taken has became one of the most valuable and treasured photo with mrs fong. Because of her strictness, i got higher than expected for eng O levels and im really greatful to her. Thanks mrs fong! In addition, in one of the photo, carol n mrs fong are just standing side by side! what a coincidence isn't it? Nevertheless, both of them will be missed by everyone who knows them.
This is certainly a bad yr for KR but no matter what, i'll pray for KR as a whole to get thru this difficult time... Let's hang on together~Teachers & KentRidgeans & Principals!
Friday, September 05, 2008
What a tiring day...
It has been a long day for me. I woke up at around 6 because lesson starts early today. Although it ended rather early today too but I'll have to go down to PS to collect things from Suhardi for tml's book making session. When I reached there, he said the book will only arrive at abt 6 or 7pm which is rather late because I have to go walk down to orchard Cineleisure for a movie appointment. So I hanged around at his working place and he treated me a ice lychee tea drink which is rather nice and had a chat with him since we have not seen each other for quite long since graduated from KR. He has not changed much except that I felt he became more mature. Although he's no longer studying (temporary) and working at a small but cosy place, I feel he's happy and it's fulfiling to him which is rather not bad too. I supposed he's the other person whom able to cast others looks aside and do something which he thinks it's good for him. Even though it is not exactly what he likes but at least he is gradually working towards to achieve what he wants. So now it is the gaining experience for a better prepared future.
Likewise, speaking to different type of people do give different views as compared to 'órdinary' peers.
Actually this morning I bumped into aunty rose at clementi mrt station so I had a short chat with her before the train comes. I think it's fate because in fact I could rush for the train which she alighted from as I would usually do when I'm already later than usual. But that day, I just took my time. Last night, I tried to chat with mummy regarding studies area and somehow I sense that actually she doesn't really like me to change... I don know if I'm too sensitive or what but that's how I felt. So I asked myself if I should give up the idea as now is the waiting time so everything seem to be calm and peaceful as not much 'waves' experienced within me. However, there is a sense of reluctance for me to do so... And once agn I seem to enter another struggle inside me. I wish I could msg HIM and see what he will say but come to think of it, I better not trouble him agn. Moreover we do not know each other long so it's rather abrupt to just msg him and trouble him with such things. I believe he will feel weird too so... ya... I'm just left with myself agn n thought thru. And just during the next morning, i met aunty rose and told her abt how sch n stuff and my intention to change... And she told me that she know someone who has high education but in the end chose to be a chef because that's her/his interest. So being highly educated does not simply means that is what the person truely likes but rather at least proved him/herself can do it but does not mean will carry on doing it. So this is how practical the world can be. before able to do sth one likes (especially if it's being stereotyped as low job), proving to others first seem to be more impt? She also did mentioned 1 pt which no 1 has talked abt before too. That is now my age is not considered to young or matured so might not know exactly what I want or like, which is true. Although there are exceptions whereby they know it since young.
And that is why I'm having a hard time and feeling so low during that period of time. Most of time just cry whenever feel that ache within my heart. So after listening to what she said, it seems to be telling me that wad i've done so far is correct, don't back out just because of current quiet period. It might be just before a wave comes if were to take it for real. So don't be decieved by it's appearance/feel.
Hence I smsed ah yee and she replied me in the afternoon. When I read it, I couldn't help but crying after reading because somehow I feel really touched at how she truely care for me. Sometimes I feel my mum didn't play much a role in my development/growing up process because the lessons i learnt thru life is from others instead from parents which shouldn't be right? So anyway... I don't know if all these are conicidence or not, somehow i think GOD has sent these people to prevent me from giving up. It may be true or false but i don't know it now... Perhaps I'll only get the ans in the future.
Likewise, speaking to different type of people do give different views as compared to 'órdinary' peers.
Actually this morning I bumped into aunty rose at clementi mrt station so I had a short chat with her before the train comes. I think it's fate because in fact I could rush for the train which she alighted from as I would usually do when I'm already later than usual. But that day, I just took my time. Last night, I tried to chat with mummy regarding studies area and somehow I sense that actually she doesn't really like me to change... I don know if I'm too sensitive or what but that's how I felt. So I asked myself if I should give up the idea as now is the waiting time so everything seem to be calm and peaceful as not much 'waves' experienced within me. However, there is a sense of reluctance for me to do so... And once agn I seem to enter another struggle inside me. I wish I could msg HIM and see what he will say but come to think of it, I better not trouble him agn. Moreover we do not know each other long so it's rather abrupt to just msg him and trouble him with such things. I believe he will feel weird too so... ya... I'm just left with myself agn n thought thru. And just during the next morning, i met aunty rose and told her abt how sch n stuff and my intention to change... And she told me that she know someone who has high education but in the end chose to be a chef because that's her/his interest. So being highly educated does not simply means that is what the person truely likes but rather at least proved him/herself can do it but does not mean will carry on doing it. So this is how practical the world can be. before able to do sth one likes (especially if it's being stereotyped as low job), proving to others first seem to be more impt? She also did mentioned 1 pt which no 1 has talked abt before too. That is now my age is not considered to young or matured so might not know exactly what I want or like, which is true. Although there are exceptions whereby they know it since young.
And that is why I'm having a hard time and feeling so low during that period of time. Most of time just cry whenever feel that ache within my heart. So after listening to what she said, it seems to be telling me that wad i've done so far is correct, don't back out just because of current quiet period. It might be just before a wave comes if were to take it for real. So don't be decieved by it's appearance/feel.
Hence I smsed ah yee and she replied me in the afternoon. When I read it, I couldn't help but crying after reading because somehow I feel really touched at how she truely care for me. Sometimes I feel my mum didn't play much a role in my development/growing up process because the lessons i learnt thru life is from others instead from parents which shouldn't be right? So anyway... I don't know if all these are conicidence or not, somehow i think GOD has sent these people to prevent me from giving up. It may be true or false but i don't know it now... Perhaps I'll only get the ans in the future.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Heart aching...
3 days have just passed and emotions have yet to settle for the better, this afternoon here came a shocking and bad news from Moose... Mrs Fong just passed away... WHY WHY WHY??? WHY MUST IT HAPPEN? So many things just happened within such short period. This yr is really bad isn't it? Did she die from old age or because of a relapse? I do not know right at the moment but Jenny asked me if she knows abt Carol's death. So what she and I thinking of is the same. We were thinking if mrs fong indeed know abt carol's news, was it really a tremendous shock for her to handle and caused her to go like this...
I never had such feeling before... heart really aches... even though we have not been keeping in contact but i've been praying for mrs fong for good health since after we know she's ill. Was my prayer being answered? I don't know... Not me alone feels absolutely bad n sad abt all these death news... what are the chances of receiving 2 death news in less than 1 week?
Past memories during KRSS days have been flashing past me during these days... although days cannot be reversed but it did happened before n will be there forever. it will not be forgotten and it shan't be.
Time will heal everything~
PS. What can I do for everyone who is mourning for our teacher n dear friend?
I never had such feeling before... heart really aches... even though we have not been keeping in contact but i've been praying for mrs fong for good health since after we know she's ill. Was my prayer being answered? I don't know... Not me alone feels absolutely bad n sad abt all these death news... what are the chances of receiving 2 death news in less than 1 week?
Past memories during KRSS days have been flashing past me during these days... although days cannot be reversed but it did happened before n will be there forever. it will not be forgotten and it shan't be.
Time will heal everything~
PS. What can I do for everyone who is mourning for our teacher n dear friend?
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
2008 is definately a turning point and an eventful yr
Many things especially bad and sad matters have happened within this yr. Just within less than 6 months in between, 2 people arnd me passed away. 1 is my grandfather and the other is xiaoding, my sec sch friend. I see how my grandfather suffered when he was diagnosed with last stage cancer but at least from that point of time till he passed away, this period of time isn't that short but not long either. Everytime I visit him, i wish he can leave earlier, to be released from pain because his state is simply unbearable. It's not being cruel in saying wish that he will go soon but this is a fact which family members or rather everyone shld learn to accept. Since he's uncurable and know he'll bound to go why don't go in peace? Similarly, it was a total shock for me when ck told me carol passed away. It's just too sudden... something which i never expect it to happen on my friends. She's so young yet suffered from some kind of complicated illness which was undiagnosable! Why a person that seem to be close to perfect seem to have such short life? I remembered during sec sch days, there was this time suddenly she flared up in front of everyone during Mrs Tan's lesson. All of us got a shock, inclding mrs tan too because all along she's a fine tempered person. But shortly after, she apologised to us for her sudden frustration and explained that it was due to stress. Only then we know how much stress is she under but nevertheless she's still appear to be happy person in front of us.
The last time I met her was 2 yrs ago when I was the person in charge of a particular gathering or outing I think, i met her to pass her sth or wad which i cant remember the exact details but... I remembered 1 thing very clearly. She wrote and gave me a small card thanking me for keeping in contact with her and she appreciates it. I know she truely means it and I'm touched as well so that card is always in my bag. When i heard this news just now, i took it out to read the contents agn and i think there's no chance of receiving another card or return her a thank you card anymore. However, I believe if i truely wish to send her my greetings she'll receive it no matter how. Though we may not be very close but definately she's a good person to befriend with.
The last time I met her was 2 yrs ago when I was the person in charge of a particular gathering or outing I think, i met her to pass her sth or wad which i cant remember the exact details but... I remembered 1 thing very clearly. She wrote and gave me a small card thanking me for keeping in contact with her and she appreciates it. I know she truely means it and I'm touched as well so that card is always in my bag. When i heard this news just now, i took it out to read the contents agn and i think there's no chance of receiving another card or return her a thank you card anymore. However, I believe if i truely wish to send her my greetings she'll receive it no matter how. Though we may not be very close but definately she's a good person to befriend with.
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